Be anxious of nothing He said, tomorrow has enough worries He said. But what happens when anxiety becomes your Achilles heel but you love Jesus, and you KNOW Him? What happens when life just gets too crazy and overwhelming and you start to unravel? Does that make you less of a believer? Do you not have enough faith?
I’ve asked myself these very questions so many times in the last 5 years that I’ve lost count. How can I preach from platforms about how mighty Jesus is and how can I walk boldly into hospital rooms to lay hands on the sick but I still struggle with anxiety?! I don’t know, I really don’t know why. I mean I am hilarious, at least I think I am. I can tend to command a room, lead a conversation if needed and stepping into scary situations doesn’t phase me. But Oh man, internally there is this anxiousness that if I’m not careful or aware it will debilitate me in ways I can’ even begin to tell you.
So, you may be wondering at this point how I control it, I don’t. I trust Jesus to control it.
In moments where I feel it rising up, I immedietly start praying, I will go find a quiet place and listen to worship music. I get intentional REAL FAST and I will engulf myself in His presence so whatever it is that is causing my anxiousness to flare up dissipates in the presence of the Living God.
Am I the best at it?
Does my anxiety sometimes win?
But even when I’ve failed at dealing with my anxiety I know that I am loved, I am cherished and God is not moved off His throne just because I lost my footing. So be encouraged, not sure what you may be struggling with but whatever it is, know that you are loved and cherished and there is peace found in His presence.
There is no anxiousness in Heaven, there is only wholeness; so I do my best to cultivate Heaven here on earth.
It’s okay to be sad.
Transition is hard, and not everyone really enjoys change. So whether you’re shifting in your life, job, or relationships take the time to cry / be sad about it. It’s OKAY, God is big enough to hear your complaints & catch your tears. He’s big enough and God enough to accept the fact that we are human and that we might not embrace shifts well. Also, if you and God are truly friends, He looks forward to those conversations. Oh Dang, that’s a good word right there! ( cue the shofar! )
Time doesn’t heal all wounds .
Someone told me right after my grandmother died that time heals all wounds. Um, I wanted to punch them in the throat for saying that because I knew that time would never heal that wound and that that loss would always be felt. I have found that the only thing time does is give you space to pull yourself together and not be led by your emotions. So when the reflection of the transition or loss comes flooding back you can handle it with more grace, more maturity. If you’re waiting for time to heal your wound or to help you “find closure” then you’ll be waiting a while; only Jesus heals wounds and closure isn’t found, its accepted.
Moving on doesn’t mean moving fast nor does it mean jumping right into the transition with open arms. It means you have put one foot in front of the other and you’re moving forward. Don’t mistake your small steps for not moving on. Your heart and mind will eventually catch up to your feet.
Side note: These are in no particular order, I am still working on all of these and it’s not a perfected system, it’s just what works for me. No matter what changes you may be facing know that YOU control the transition, it doesn’t control you
DEVELOPMENT should never be looked at as a stepping stone towards DISCOVERY, instead it should be embraced as an essential chapter preceding DEPLOYMENT.
DISCOVERY is not the goal, DEPLOYMENT is.
I lead a pretty young creative team. Let me clarify, young in age but not in heart or wisdom. On top of all but 1 being in their 20’s they are all incredibly creative and eager and full of feelings. Not bad feels, just lots of feels. They are also my favorite people and I am pretty sure in this season you will hear a lot about them because I tend to talk about what I am currently investing in. That’s what brings me to today’s topic…investing.
I love investing in and developing people as much as Oprah loves bread! In 20 years of ministry I have found that developing and pushing others forward is pretty much my favorite thing to do. I’ve been invested in and have seen it done well and I’ve seen it done poorly. I’ve had mentors and I have mentored. I’ve helped develop and I’ve walked through development…I am always walking through some kind of development. So when it comes to the topic of people and development my heart longs to see it done well and done through the filter of LOVE.
I can only speak from my experience but investing in people is not a science, nor is it easy. It’s also never really successful if there are agendas on the table or if there is a desired outcome from whoever is being invested in or doing the developing. It has to be spirit-led and with no expectations. Jesus loved and developed because it was ingrained in Him to see people become everything He knew they could be. So HE LOVED THEM through their tax collector tendencies and HE LOVED THEM through their bent towards betrayal. Regardless of if they were caught in the act or hiding in a tree, LOVE was the GOAL, and it was LOVE that developed and pushed them forward. Jesus loves people, and if you invest in others with an agenda your return will be temporal. If you solely invest with LOVE in mind, the return will always be eternal. You can’t fix people, but you can LOVE people. So do that. Just love people, in the end that’s all that matters, and God will always fill the gaps.
If you want to be a speaker one day, speak into the lives of those around you.
If you want to start a blog, get really good at developing content on your social media platform first to ease into content development.
If you want to be a professional singer, sing covers on youtube and build a following there.
Before I ever did any concerts or recorded any albums I sang every song to my mom, my friends, and anyone who would listen. I carried my guitar everywhere. Before I ever taught on a stage with a microphone I shared what God was doing in my life with my circle, my social media, this blog. Impact your circle faithfully and God will make your circle bigger.
You don’t need a stage to have a platform, nor do you need a live audience to have influence. You just need to start right where you are with people that are right where you are.
Dream big, love God, everything else will work itself out, you just gotta be faithful RIGHT HERE.